Wednesday, January 22, 2014

the great unknown




Long time no update! Life has been rushed and busy lately. I guess I should be thankful for the time in the life when I have the freedom to be gone for over 12 hours day, but right now I am tired. 
Honestly, I am a bit sad because I feel like Christmas escaped me and I didn't really get to savor it. 

So much has been happening and I'm anticipating so much more to happen in the next couple of months. At work, there has been some tension and frustration that has built up and I believe it is to the point that action and change must be happen. Great, but that means my role may change a bit. And to be honest, I am honestly, ridiculously, steadily nervous. When I start to think it, fears and doubts begin to fill my mind.  Alongside that, inadequacy and comparison has been burdening me.


"But you have an anointing from the Holy One, and all of you know the truth", "As for you, the anointing you received from him remains in you and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about all things and as that anointing is real, not counterfeit - just as it has taught you, remain in him." 1 John 2:20,28

He fills all. I will be encountered by new situations or uncertainty, but the Holy Spirit will guide and teach.  All things. There is nothing He cannot guide me through. It is just scary because oftentimes teaching comes through experience and mistakes. Also, it means in this time of newness and fears, I need to remain and seek Him. 

I have songs that I fall in love, that articulate my season or my struggles and thoughts.
Over the last few months, one of these songs would be 'Oceans' by Owl City.
'Take me deeper then my feet have ever wandered, where my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior!'
'You called me out upon the waters, the great unknown where feet may fail.'